Broken...

My heart is broken.  My only desire is to make my Lord and Savior, the Lord Jesus Christ, famous on the earth.  He is the One, True God, and there is none other.  His Name is above all, for He created all that there is.  Any time we sin we defile His Holy Name.  Any time we place self above Him, we sin greatly, and we make Him less than He truly is.  My desire to make Him known has led me down a path that has completely astonished me.  The things He has done in my life, in the lives of my wife and children, and my loving friends in my inner circle can only be explained by a Merciful and Loving God extending His loving grace towards us, and me in particular.  I consider myself the wealthiest man on the earth, for the Lord has blessed me with a beautiful and loving wife, and four simply amazing children that truly love the Lord and live for Him every day.  Over the years He has drawn me close to Him in ways I could have never imagined. 

On this journey He has spoken to me directly through dreams, and later as I have sought His face, I have heard His voice in my Spirit.  I have been journaling since the early 1990’s and that discipline served me well in chronicling what the Lord has done for me and said to me in my prayer time.  In 2016 I felt led by Him to start my blog and as I read many of my past entries it is clear He is speaking to me and through me.  But where His Word is preached more boldly, there is Satan and his demons seeking to steal, kill and destroy.  

I now come to you broken.  I have allowed Satan to steal God’s glory from me.  I have sinned greatly in allowing evil demons with evil intent to rob me of my credibility among my peers and those who have read this blog.  While thinking I was hearing from the Lord, because it had become so comfortable, Satan led me away from my God and I spoke things that should not have been said, for they were not from Him.  

I ended up going to Europe, in direct opposition to the word that I thought was from the Lord.  As the day of my departure drew closer, I became more and more despondent.  The thought of leading anyone astray from the Lord has become unbearable.  I have sought His forgiveness, I have freely confessed my pride and for many days have worn “sackcloth and ashes”, and now know that the Lord has forgiven me.  The part that is more difficult is forgiving myself, because I allowed this to happen.   1 John 4:1 “Beloved, believe not every spirit, but try the spirits whether they are of God: because many false prophets are gone out into the world.”

I was do despondent at the thought of leading anyone astray I took down this blog when I returned from Europe.  Only now have I felt led to write this apology, explaining what has happened.  To anyone I have given false hope, please forgive me.  I will leave this blog up for now, for I truly believe that He has spoken to me, but I warn you to read only after seeking the Lord and asking Him to confirm these words are from Him or not.  I may at some point write again, but I simply cannot at this time. 

Grace to all who love our Lord Jesus Christ with an undying love,

Alan Carrico

I Pierce the Darkness

Hello Father, I just asked You to speak with me, to help me and give me encouragement and You said, “Write”.  

Abba:  Hello My son, this is Jehovah Elohim speaking with you this day.  Oh My son, you are pierced with many woes because of the time in which you live.  Satan has been sifting you as wheat and you have grown weary and have fallen away from Me.  You struggle because you doubt, My son.  You doubt that I AM is with you.  You doubt because you cannot see around the bend.  You doubt because of your great fear in defaming My Holy Name.  But My son, I AM with you.  You know this in your heart, and yet you fall from Me when things grow darker.  I told you that this would be.  I told you, and many of My chosen ones, that the earth would become very dark, and it is now upon you all.  Do not fear what you sense in the darkness, for I AM is breaking through in this darkness and I AM bringing hope to the lost.  Many are encouraged by your words, My son.  Many are encouraged by My words through all My prophets, messengers and scribes.  You have entered into a new phase of being on the earth as this gross darkness continues to spread.  You see some of what is happening, but there is so much more that you don’t see.  This is where your trust in Me is faltering.  Fear not, for I AM with you!  I say this to all My children:  When the darkness becomes overbearing, call out to Me and I will pierce the darkness. Your Loving Father, Jehovah Elohim.

 Luke 22:31-32 (KJV)

³¹ And the Lord said, Simon, Simon, behold, Satan hath desired to have you, that he may sift you as wheat: ³² But I have prayed for thee, that thy faith fail not: and when thou art converted, strengthen thy brethren.

Psalm 32 (KJV)

32 Blessed is he whose transgression is forgiven, whose sin is covered. ² Blessed is the man unto whom the Lord imputeth not iniquity, and in whose spirit there is no guile. ³ When I kept silence, my bones waxed old through my roaring all the day long. ⁴ For day and night thy hand was heavy upon me: my moisture is turned into the drought of summer. Selah. ⁵ I acknowledge my sin unto thee, and mine iniquity have I not hid. I said, I will confess my transgressions unto the Lord; and thou forgavest the iniquity of my sin. Selah. ⁶ For this shall every one that is godly pray unto thee in a time when thou mayest be found: surely in the floods of great waters they shall not come nigh unto him. ⁷ Thou art my hiding place; thou shalt preserve me from trouble; thou shalt compass me about with songs of  deliverance. Selah. ⁸ I will instruct thee and teach thee in the way which thou shalt go: I will guide thee with mine eye. ⁹ Be ye not as the horse, or as the mule, which have no understanding: whose mouth must be held in with bit and bridle, lest they come near unto thee. ¹⁰ Many sorrows shall be to the wicked: but he that trusteth in the Lord, mercy shall compass him about. ¹¹ Be glad in the Lord, and rejoice, ye righteous: and shout for joy, all ye that are upright in heart.

Matthew 21:19-22 (KJV)

¹⁹ And when he saw a fig tree in the way, he came to it, and found nothing thereon, but leaves only, and said unto it, Let no fruit grow on thee henceforward for ever. And presently the fig tree withered away. ²⁰ And when the disciples saw it, they marvelled, saying, How soon is the fig tree withered away! ²¹ Jesus answered and said unto them, Verily I say unto you, If ye have faith, and doubt not, ye shall not only do this which is done to the fig tree, but also if ye shall say unto this mountain, Be thou removed, and be thou cast into the sea; it shall be done. ²² And all things, whatsoever ye shall ask in prayer, believing, ye shall receive.

Mark 11:22-24 (KJV)

²² And Jesus answering saith unto them, Have faith in God. ²³ For verily I say unto you, That whosoever shall say unto this mountain, Be thou removed, and be thou cast into the sea; and shall not doubt in his heart, but shall believe that those things which he saith shall come to pass; he shall have whatsoever he saith. ²⁴ Therefore I say unto you, What things soever ye desire, when ye pray, believe that ye receive them, and ye shall have them.

This is the Only Way

Abba:  Hello My son, this is Jehovah Elohim speaking with you this day.  My son, listen closely for I have much to say.  Tell My people that I AM coming soon.  I AM about to break through on the earth and into their lives in a very big way in the coming days.  The hour of temptation is upon My people as the evil one has pulled out all the stops in attacking you.  Ferociously he attacks and many of you are being pulled aside from Me unknowingly.  You are pulled aside because of your flesh.  Your flesh is subject to the evil one, so you must forsake your flesh and press into Me in Spirit and in truth.  The Spirit is at odds with the flesh, and the flesh is at odds with the Spirit.  Your Spirit is where I have contact with you, and your flesh stands in the way if you appease the lusts of your flesh.  Now is not the time to appease the flesh, for in the flesh you die.  It is your Spirit that is in connection with Me and the Spirit world is where I live.  The Spirit world is true reality, whereas your world is a mere shadow of things to come.  When you are in your spirit and in communication with Me, the flesh has no bearing on your direction.  But when you give in to your fleshly lusts, you are carried away from Me and into the darkness.  This is My plea to you today, to rebuke your flesh – crucify your flesh with My Son, Jesus Christ, so that you reap everlasting life in the Spirit.  The earth is covered by evil entities that are relentless in appealing to your flesh.  You MUST put a stop to this now, or you will be left behind to suffer refinement, that you be holy and pure in My sight.  My Word says that I come swiftly for a holy and pure Bride arrayed in white.  These are the wise virgins who have pressed into Me.  Those in the flesh are the foolish virgins that are wearing filthy garments that have been uncleansed by My Spirit as they have forsaken their time with Me.  Sit in My presence, My loves, and be cleansed.  The Blood of Jesus Christ is the only solvent to clean your garments.  I say this as a reminder for now is a difficult time for My people as the attacks of the evil one are relentless upon you.  Press in to Me at all times, that I may protect you from these attacks.  This is the only way, My children.  This is the only way!  Your Heavenly Father calls out to you.  I AM, Jehovah Elohim.

Revelation 3:10-12 (KJV)

¹⁰ Because thou hast kept the word of my patience, I also will keep thee from the hour of temptation, which shall come upon all the world, to try them that dwell upon the earth. ¹¹ Behold, I come quickly: hold that fast which thou hast, that no man take thy crown. ¹² Him that overcometh will I make a pillar in the temple of my God, and he shall go no more out: and I will write upon him the name of my God, and the name of the city of my God, which is new Jerusalem, which cometh down out of heaven from my God: and I will write upon him my new name.

Psalm 54:2-4 (KJV)

² Hear my prayer, O God; give ear to the words of my mouth. ³ For strangers are risen up against me, and oppressors seek after my soul: they have not set God before them. Selah. ⁴ Behold, God is mine helper: the Lord is with them that uphold my soul.

Galatians 6:7-9 (KJV)

⁷ Be not deceived; God is not mocked: for whatsoever a man soweth, that shall he also reap. ⁸ For he that soweth to his flesh shall of the flesh reap corruption; but he that soweth to the Spirit shall of the Spirit reap life everlasting. ⁹ And let us not be weary in well doing: for in due season we shall reap, if we faint not.

Romans 7 (KJV)

7 Know ye not, brethren, (for I speak to them that know the law,) how that the law hath dominion over a man as long as he liveth? ² For the woman which hath an husband is bound by the law to her husband so long as he liveth; but if the husband be dead, she is loosed from the law of her husband. ³ So then if, while her husband liveth, she be married to another man, she shall be called an adulteress: but if her husband be dead, she is free from that law; so that she is no adulteress, though she be married to another man. ⁴ Wherefore, my brethren, ye also are become dead to the law by the body of Christ; that ye should be married to another, even to him who is raised from the dead, that we should bring forth fruit unto God. ⁵ For when we were in the flesh, the motions of sins, which were by the law, did work in our members to bring forth fruit unto death. ⁶ But now we are delivered from the law, that being dead wherein we were held; that we should serve in newness of spirit, and not in the oldness of the letter. ⁷ What shall we say then? Is the law sin? God forbid. Nay, I had not known sin, but by the law: for I had not known lust, except the law had said, Thou shalt not covet. ⁸ But sin, taking occasion by the commandment, wrought in me all manner of concupiscence. For without the law sin was dead. ⁹ For I was alive without the law once: but when the commandment came, sin revived, and I died. ¹⁰ And the commandment, which was ordained to life, I found to be unto death. ¹¹ For sin, taking occasion by the commandment, deceived me, and by it slew me. ¹² Wherefore the law is holy, and the commandment holy, and just, and good. ¹³ Was then that which is good made death unto me? God forbid. But sin, that it might appear sin, working death in me by that which is good; that sin by the commandment might become exceeding sinful. ¹⁴ For we know that the law is spiritual: but I am carnal, sold under sin. ¹⁵ For that which I do I allow not: for what I would, that do I not; but what I hate, that do I. ¹⁶ If then I do that which I would not, I consent unto the law that it is good. ¹⁷ Now then it is no more I that do it, but sin that dwelleth in me. ¹⁸ For I know that in me (that is, in my flesh,) dwelleth no good thing: for to will is present with me; but how to perform that which is good I find not. ¹⁹ For the good that I would I do not: but the evil which I would not, that I do. ²⁰ Now if I do that I would not, it is no more I that do it, but sin that dwelleth in me. ²¹ I find then a law, that, when I would do good, evil is present with me.  ²² For I delight in the law of God after the inward man: ²³ But I see another law in my members, warring against the law of my mind, and bringing me into captivity to the law of sin which is in my members. ²⁴ O wretched man that I am! who shall deliver me from the body of this death? ²⁵ I thank God through Jesus Christ our Lord. So then with the mind I myself serve the law of God; but with the flesh the law of sin.

Matthew 25:1-13 (KJV)

25 Then shall the kingdom of heaven be likened unto ten virgins, which took their lamps, and went forth to meet the bridegroom. ² And five of them were wise, and five were foolish. ³ They that were foolish took their lamps, and took no oil with them: ⁴ But the wise took oil in their vessels with their lamps. ⁵ While the bridegroom tarried, they all slumbered and slept. ⁶ And at midnight there was a cry made, Behold, the bridegroom cometh; go ye out to meet him. ⁷ Then all those virgins arose, and trimmed their lamps. ⁸ And the foolish said unto the wise, Give us of your oil; for our lamps are gone out. ⁹ But the wise answered, saying, Not so; lest there be not enough for us and you: but go ye rather to them that sell, and buy for yourselves. ¹⁰ And while they went to buy, the bridegroom came; and they that were ready went in with him to the marriage: and the door was shut. ¹¹ Afterward came also the other virgins, saying, Lord, Lord, open to us. ¹² But he answered and said, Verily I say unto you, I know you not. ¹³ Watch therefore, for ye know neither the day nor the hour wherein the Son of man cometh.

1 John 1:6-7 (KJV)

⁶ If we say that we have fellowship with him, and walk in darkness, we lie, and do not the truth: ⁷ But if we walk in the light, as he is in the light, we have fellowship one with another, and the blood of Jesus Christ his Son cleanseth us from all sin.